interview with a stranger

Anonymous: if you ment no harm then what were you trying to do, stop people form getting hurt?

Me: no. i just want them to know that i didn't mean it.

A: why did you do it?

M: no idea. maybe to prove something to myself?

A: what made you do it if you knew it was wrong?

M: like i said, maybe to prove something to myself? maybe it was jealousy? and i think i still did it becase i just got caught up in the moment.. she never excepted my apology and that always got to me - it was like she wasn't willing to let the past go.. or she wasn't willing to start anew.

A: did you do it out of jealousy?

M: yes. i think that was one of the main contributing factors. now i know why jealousy is a SIN (even though i'm not religeous..)

A: it sounds like you did but when you did it?

M: um.. what?

A: did you think that somehow things would get better if you upset others?

M: i have no idea what i was thinking.. probs just pent-up anger from everyone, not just her.

A: i guess some people are just like that, they think if they upset someone else it will make them feel better..... but truth be told it does absolutely nothing .

M: i know, i'm ashamed of what i did. but i paid the price - one of my 'friends' was the one who told her, now that whole group htes me becase they found out i was complaining about them, and heaven forbid anyone ever complain about them, it;s not like there could ever be a reason perhaps.

A: :'(

M: :''(